So clearly after my last meltdown, things have progressed – though I’m not sure I would say for the better or not. Let’s just say I have several projects this week, and thank God its Wednesday because two of them will be completed today. That is… If I can figure out wtf I’m supposed to talk about.
But today, lovelies, I’m going to talk about something that is incredibly prevalent in law school: drugs.
More specifically, Adderall. Yes, I’m going there. I’m going there because one of the people I’m working with on a project clearly has ADD and is on some sort of medication that makes him…focus.
You hear about all the benefits of Adderall and its progeny… you never see what it does to a person face to face. I’ve been exposed to it this week…and I can tell you, fuck no I don’t want anything to do with it. I first saw this kid last week and he looked… rough. Like he hadn’t slept for DAYS. I asked him if he was ok, had been sleeping alright.
He snapped back, “I don’t care what people think anymore. I’m on medication and I’ve just reached a point where I don’t care.”
O.O …. excuse me dude, I was just gonna suggest you take a power nap.
So the next day, we start working on a project together. It’s a simple powerpoint, nothing major and I offer to shoulder as much as I can because he has missed a week of school. We start working… “Can you make the font bigger?”
“No I mean bigger.”
“II just did…”
“To match the letter next to it? and the question mark too? Wait no this slide should be *tick* here.”
….. What in God’s name is going on with this kid? “Ok sure.” *Moving things around*
It continues like this for an hour. Focusing on incredibly small details…and going down a rabbit hole. I chalked it up to annoyance until he said, “haha I guess this is where my ADD comes in. Focusing on stupid things.”
Now let me clarify something. I have nothing against people who have ADD or ADHD. For a while, I wondered if I had it myself. I don’t even have an issue with people on medication, especially since I was considering taking it myself.
But after seeing this… I realized I don’t have ADD and I damn sure don’t need medication. Law school is just hard and often times boring, which is why I tend to tune out during lectures and focus on getting other shit done.
So what’s my point? Medications are serious things. If you don’t have a disorder or know what you’re doing, holy crap they can mess with you. Being an inexperienced person with medications, I think I will stick to coffee and tea at the moment. But clearly both this kid and myself are having a rough week. But like I said, tonight at 9pm means the end of said week for me – and the beginning of phase two, rough weekend lol
That being said, I need to get back to work on this presentation. In the 2 hours I have been awake, I have washed (and am now drying) laundry and painted over my nails (they were chipping/peeling and looked really bad), and gotten started on my speaking points. Here’s hoping I can pull something out of a top hat and make it work.
Charging forward!! lol