Rough Week

So clearly after my last meltdown, things have progressed – though I’m not sure I would say for the better or not. Let’s just say I have several projects this week, and thank God its Wednesday because two of them will be completed today. That is… If I can figure out wtf I’m supposed to talk about.

But today, lovelies, I’m going to talk about something that is incredibly prevalent in law school: drugs.

More specifically, Adderall. Yes, I’m going there. I’m going there because one of the people I’m working with on a project clearly has ADD and is on some sort of medication that makes him…focus.

You hear about all the benefits of Adderall and its progeny… you never see what it does to a person face to face. I’ve been exposed to it this week…and I can tell you, fuck no I don’t want anything to do with it. I first saw this kid last week and he looked… rough. Like he hadn’t slept for DAYS. I asked him if he was ok, had been sleeping alright.

He snapped back, “I don’t care what people think anymore. I’m on medication and I’ve just reached a point where I don’t care.”

O.O …. excuse me dude, I was just gonna suggest you take a power nap.

So the next day, we start working on a project together. It’s a simple powerpoint, nothing major and I offer to shoulder as much as I can because he has missed a week of school. We start working… “Can you make the font bigger?”

“Sure.”

“No I mean bigger.”

“II just did…”

“To match the letter next to it? and the question mark too? Wait no this slide should be *tick* here.”

….. What in God’s name is going on with this kid? “Ok sure.” *Moving things around*

It continues like this for an hour. Focusing on incredibly small details…and going down a rabbit hole. I chalked it up to annoyance until he said, “haha I guess this is where my ADD comes in. Focusing on stupid things.”

O.O …

Now let me clarify something. I have nothing against people who have ADD or ADHD. For a while, I wondered if I had it myself. I don’t even have an issue with people on medication, especially since I was considering taking it myself.

But after seeing this… I realized I don’t have ADD and I damn sure don’t need medication. Law school is just hard and often times boring, which is why I tend to tune out during lectures and focus on getting other shit done.

So what’s my point? Medications are serious things. If you don’t have a disorder or know what you’re doing, holy crap they can mess with you. Being an inexperienced person with medications, I think I will stick to coffee and tea at the moment. But clearly both this kid and myself are having a rough week. But like I said, tonight at 9pm means the end of said week for me – and the beginning of phase two, rough weekend lol

That being said, I need to get back to work on this presentation. In the 2 hours I have been awake, I have washed (and am now drying) laundry and painted over my nails (they were chipping/peeling and looked really bad), and gotten started on my speaking points. Here’s hoping I can pull something out of a top hat and make it work.

Charging forward!! lol

xox

Venting while Hungry

I cannot express to you how angry I am right now, at every damn thing you could possibly think of.

But let’s start with the thing that set me off over the tipping point just now. It is Saturday, ladies and gentlemen. One of my classes has two professors, who like to pick a group to answer certain questions every week, to be “on call.” I already hate this class. What makes me hate this class even more right now? Its saturday and we JUST got the fucking email letting us know that we are on call. The presentation is due Monday; and I am in no condition to drive to school right now because not only am I on that time of the goddamn month – I am hungry.

I have $30 to my bank account and no idea how I’m going to make it to the end of the month. PRAISE THE LORD all my bills are already paid and its just food and gas that I have to worry about. Oh and you know. the fucking $10 parking my school has to charge because they can get away with it.

So let’s go down the list.

- Last minute announcement of being on call with technically only one day to prepare

- On my time of the month

- Broke

- Hungry

- Somewhat significant other is a twat

- Don’t fucking feel like doing anything

- I feel gross all over and it has been confirmed that I am slightly gross by some guy who doesn’t even fucking know me

I think if I was any more irritated or hated my life any more, I would just go to a corner and curl up and die right now. Because I literally can’t.

I don’t even have wine in the house.

I’m fucking done with today. I’m done with law school. I’m done with myself. I need to go somewhere and cry because I am so over this bullshit.

**Update as I’m writing this – got another email saying my group is on call for the second day of class this week, not the first. To which I wanted to respond to the email with a resounding, “THANKS FOR THE FUCKING CLARIFICATION!” ** Yes. I am that pissed off right now.

Make time for what you love

I heard this all the time as a 1L, and have told this to my mentee on the first coffee meet we had.
Whatever you do that makes you happy, keep doing it when you get to law school. My thing is volunteering. It will probably continue to be volunteering for as long as I live.
Earlier tonight, I asked someone what they thought of that. Their response was, “my first thought is where does she find the time?!”

In the very wise words of one of my best LS friends: if it’s important to you, you will make time. If it’s not, you will make an excuse.

That being said, do what’s important to you, guys. Do what brings a smile to your heart.
💕

Just a thought.
Xox

What bugs me about law school.

Sometimes, you think you are doing the appropriate thing by being polite and friendly to people – in an attempt to connect.

Sometimes it works out. Other times, you realize what gigantic jerks people are. Take two very recent examples.

#1) I went to a mentoring reception the other night and did a little volunteering as well as networking. I remember being shy a year ago but through several experiences, have connected with some great people in the field. One in particular is a little older lady who is a fireball. I met her last year and she gave me her card, and I always kept it. When I saw her again at the reception (the same place I had met her last year), I introduced myself. “Hi Ms. xxx! Remember me? It’s XXX.”

She didn’t miss a beat. “Oh my goodness!! come here you! You are on fire!!” *pulls a board member over” “YYY have you met XXX?! This girl is on fire. She is a formula 1 racecar driver! Taking control of her life and blazing on! I am so proud of her!” I was blushing and smiling but thankful that she remembered me, because I had kept in touch with her via email over the year.

Case in point, to you aspiring law students or 1Ls – biggest lesson ever: ALWAYS FOLLOW UP. It can really get you places.

#2) there is an organization at school that seems to pride themselves on race. Being mixed, I always question whether I should gear towards the black group or the latin group. Because of my last name, I most often gravitate towards the latin group and just deal with the “You don’t speak spanish?” question with a grin. Recently, I decided that I shouldn’t limit myself. So I reached out to the black group and asked about how to go about paying dues and becoming an official member.

That was a week ago. No response. Uh huh. But you guys post every day on Facebook. And probably twitter. And hold weekly meetings. And encourage people to pay their dues.

I will see how much longer it takes to get a response, but I may just forget about the whole thing. What I’m learning is that I don’t have time for foolishness, and at the first sight of BS – I need to shove it right back out the door.

Just a thought.

Getting back on the wagon (#15byHalloween)

Even though I’ve been up since 5am yesterday, I am still up.. sipping detox tea (I love Yogi brand), letting the dishwasher run, and letting the crockpot crock. I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned how much I love my crockpot. I love it.

I luhhhhvvvvv it. Lol Set it on high for 6 hours because I want to go for a run at 6am, and its good to go. Currently making cabbage soup because I remember my mum used to make it for me when I was chunky as a child.

Chunky no more! Lol Anyways. Back to work. Hoping to be asleep by 1:30am. Wish me luck.

Westlaw, Lexis, Bloomberg: where we stand now

Originally posted on The Lawyering Chronicles:

Some of my more successful posts have been my tutorials on how to rake in tons of points on Westlaw and Lexis, however things are very different this year.

Westlaw:

NO MORE WESTLAW POINTS!

This is pretty shocking in my opinion. I have always preferred using Westlaw even though there wasn’t a free Westlaw printer on campus. But now they don’t even give points anymore!! I used these points to get my wife pearl earrings, a legal dictionary and other goodies. They barely have any free gear anymore besides pens, highlighters and candy. I will still default to using Westlaw, but if I were a 1L this year, I would probably not.

Lexis:

So Lexis has totally revamped their research interface (Lexis Next :p) and I have to say it is tons better. Also the new Lexis will often include a Case Summary and Syllabus in front of every case…

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From “Dare to Be a Compassionate Lawyer”

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For a while I’ve wondered if I’m too bloody caring for my own good lol look at how deep I analyze my own faults in something like dating! And the amount of energy I put into worthy causes… Many of my friends look at my like I’m crazy, every time I say I’m doing something new.

This article just came out in the ABA’s student lawyer magazine. It hit home. One quote in particular that stuck out:

“Legal education is a powerful drug; but if you’re not careful, it can drown out your instincts, stifle your emotion, and numb your heart. Law school molds and enhances your intellect, but frequently neglects to enlighten and illuminate your soul. The damage is predictable.
Great lawyers are more than just brilliant tacticians: They’re instinctive, heartfelt, caring, and real. No matter what else you do in law school, start learning how to be that type of lawyer.”
– Jordan Furlong

Cheers to that y’all 💋